(reading that is!)
Using my Tarot of the Secret Forest - I drew three cards:
4 of Cups (Mind)
10 of Wands (Body)
Queen of Wands (Spirit)
Initial impressions are those of warmth - given the reddish hues of the wands. All cards are color side up - which doesn't happen frequently!
4 of Cups - to me this card is the "ghost card." For this deck anyway! I always see a bit of a ghost in the card - The card shows what could be an idyllic scene - except for that ghost - that nagging sense of something is wrong - the doom and gloom. Pooh's little black rain cloud. Which fits for my current mental state. The sense of impending doom comes from the threat of lay-off for my husband. We were struggling for so long - he got a job, then he got a GREAT job. Now, there is possibility of lay-offs in April. But what has that to do with a "cuppy" thing? Well, I feel a lot of resentment towards my husband. He spent nearly 2 years without a job - feeling sorry for himself and sucking our finances dry with beer & cigarettes. He incurred debt that is like a rock on my shoulders. I am in school and I work. Four years ago, he promised that he would work so I could concentrate on school.
My that felt good to get that out.
10 of Wands - this is a tired old turtle carrying the weight of the world on his shell. He carries along his own food and camouflage. An old turtle should just sink in the mud and let the reeds grow from the earth. Physically, I am showing the outward signs of stress. It is taking its toll and this old turtle just wants to sink in the mud.
Queen of Wands - What a beautiful card! She looks relaxed and confident. Everything around her is rich and vibrant. Either I am getting a nudge that I should emulate this queen or I am getting a tip for having some of her qualities. Honestly, even though I am stressed and worried, I am positive. Maybe not about specific things, but GENERALLY. I know that in the long run, it will be fine. In the words of my late husband, "They can run you into the ground, heck, they can even kill you, but they can't kill and eat you!" A great man.
All in all this little spread was kind of a reinforcement of what is going on. It does bring to the surface the resentment.
Flipped over, the cards tell a slightly different story. There is no ghost, but the idyllic castle and creek are fuzzy and distant. The turtle is is devoid of color and even looks as if he has sunken beneath the surface. The queen looks a bit tired and disconnected. Without the vibrancy of the red queen, the whole reading looses its luster and becomes dismal. Something to consider.
wow, its amazing when some days the cards just hit us like a ton of bricks, because a Daily card doesnt just reflect what happens in that day, but about themes and influences in our lives that come and go.
ReplyDeleteThe Queen of Wands is a fabulous card, suggesting through all your troubles you have worked hard and now you shine. Perhaps your husband just doesnt know what to do in that you will always outshine him now for what youve done for him? The Queen is one strong woman, and this is true for you (even if you feel like your crumbling on the inside)